Part I: OMENS, COSMIC CLUES and DENIAL

I had just left the job-site where Billy and Gorden were working, and stopped at a shopping center parking lot. All of a sudden the clouds opened up and the rain pelted my car. I was grateful to have gotten my pinholin' done of the job-site and that me and my gear were in the dry car. Noticing that I still had a couple frames left on the roll I had just started, I decided to get a "self" image of myself waiting out the storm. When the film came back developed I noticed that I wasn't in the "self" shots. My jacket showed that a body had created the shape, and that body was mine. But for some reason I didn't and I became distraught due to past health problems and though it was an omen forecasting things to come. I even ran this idea by some people on the Internet and they didn't quite see what I did.

I guess that having been so sick in the 1980's made me start looking for signals to where my life was going. I began to assess my health during the last few months and could only remember a bad flu-like cold with swollen glands and the usual miserable symptoms. But one thing remained constant and it was that one gland in my neck never really got back to its normal size. I began to monitor the gland; which is really a lymph node, and thought that it was due to my always rubbing it to see if it was smaller or not. It remained swollen. I had the gland checked out at the doctors and with my past history of cancer, the doctors wanted to remove the gland and run some tests.

I was supposed to go on vacation to the beach the next week and put off the surgery until I returned. I was in denial, but needed the mental break, so it was off to Oak Island, N.C. and a wonderful time with my sweetheart, Janet, and Dave and Shelby.